Mercoledì, 04 ottobre 2017 @ 21:01
The REAL First Time I Decided to Dress
When I was 12.........I thought something wasn't quite right.
Its difficult to put into words...
I had heard stories at *****, something about not being born right?..
As you know ***** think differently about things any way.......
So I decided to act on the stories.
I asked my dad if I could see my birth certificate.....I made up some rubbish for the reason (he wasn't too pleased about it though).
He got the certificate out and showed me.
Looking at it, I made some comment for cover.....
I had seen what I had needed.
Walking away, I said thank you and went to my bedroom....
I cried and cried.....
It had said
"boy"
I just was amazed and couldn't sort it out in my mind....
The next few days.....It got to me....and I thought ......NO.........its got to be wrong, or somethings just not right with it.
So I made plans to experiment for the future.
Its difficult to put into words...
I had heard stories at *****, something about not being born right?..
As you know ***** think differently about things any way.......
So I decided to act on the stories.
I asked my dad if I could see my birth certificate.....I made up some rubbish for the reason (he wasn't too pleased about it though).
He got the certificate out and showed me.
Looking at it, I made some comment for cover.....
I had seen what I had needed.
Walking away, I said thank you and went to my bedroom....
I cried and cried.....
It had said
"boy"
I just was amazed and couldn't sort it out in my mind....
The next few days.....It got to me....and I thought ......NO.........its got to be wrong, or somethings just not right with it.
So I made plans to experiment for the future.
I looked at ladies fashions in eagerness and learnt all I could about colours and styles.
I saved all my pocket money /birthday /Christmas money.....
But so nothing was suspected, I still bought my comic and sweets.
When I was 14, I wrote a small list out and went to Lincoln with my parents.......
They went normal household shopping, I said I was going to Boots and Ruddock's (they sold records etc. then)
I actually went opposite to 2 women's shops, one of which was Mawer and Collinghams, with my list. I went to the lingerie department and asked a lady assistant for help...
Showing the list of things that my "girlfriend" had dared me to get for her.
I had written down knickers, stockings, belt, and bra, suggested makes also sizes and colour black
I had prices in mind but I was lucky with the being given a discount on the total price.
When I put them on ..............it wasn't a fetish thing not that I knew that word anyway.
It just felt natural.
I had a hell of a time hiding the things. I wrapped them in my normal clothes and had to make sure I kept all my 3 drawers in 6 drawer chest spotless so mum would just leave well alone.
In the next 2 years until I started work I kept check on club books keeping an eye on female fashion, making notes of what worked with what...
I as all youngsters started on a low wage..
but I didn't want to buy cheap as I had started with nice things Wonderbra, and other known makes.
To still cover myself I carried on buying my comic and sweets and still put a little money on 1 side for renewing MY lingerie.
I again hit on an idea, to help make things a little more affordable.....
That was going to be around my 16th birthday.........
I saved all my pocket money /birthday /Christmas money.....
But so nothing was suspected, I still bought my comic and sweets.
When I was 14, I wrote a small list out and went to Lincoln with my parents.......
They went normal household shopping, I said I was going to Boots and Ruddock's (they sold records etc. then)
I actually went opposite to 2 women's shops, one of which was Mawer and Collinghams, with my list. I went to the lingerie department and asked a lady assistant for help...
Showing the list of things that my "girlfriend" had dared me to get for her.
I had written down knickers, stockings, belt, and bra, suggested makes also sizes and colour black
I had prices in mind but I was lucky with the being given a discount on the total price.
When I put them on ..............it wasn't a fetish thing not that I knew that word anyway.
It just felt natural.
I had a hell of a time hiding the things. I wrapped them in my normal clothes and had to make sure I kept all my 3 drawers in 6 drawer chest spotless so mum would just leave well alone.
In the next 2 years until I started work I kept check on club books keeping an eye on female fashion, making notes of what worked with what...
I as all youngsters started on a low wage..
but I didn't want to buy cheap as I had started with nice things Wonderbra, and other known makes.
To still cover myself I carried on buying my comic and sweets and still put a little money on 1 side for renewing MY lingerie.
I again hit on an idea, to help make things a little more affordable.....
That was going to be around my 16th birthday.........
But things sadly, 2 months prior to my 16th birthday would change my life for ever, and the way I thought from then on......................