pearsquasher blog

 On Friday morning I met up with a guy from a gay cruising site. I went round to his house where he was waiting, ready to go - his cock was fucking huge. I quickly got undressed and we started playing and rubbing our bodies against each other. He sucked my cock and I tried to suck his but I kept catching him with my teeth - I couldn't help it though, his cock was so thick I could barely get any of it in my mouth.

We soon got down to what we'd arranged to do and he put on a condom. Thank god this guy was experienced and patient because it took a while for me to get comfortable enough to take him. Once the pain became bearable though it was fucking magnificent as he pinned me down and ploughed his 9 inches into me.

The downside afterwards is that my own, admittedly average, cock now feels tiny in comparison to this guy's monster tool. So I need to find someone with a small one so I can feel superior!

I'm a married man. I'm also bisexual. My wife has no idea I like having sex with men.

I blame the internet. Before, the only porn I'd seen was British porn mags which only feature naked women - no hard cocks and certainly no penetration. So back in '93 (I think) when I got access to the internet and started looking at hardcore porn I saw a lot more cocks than I ever had before. It didn't take too long to realise that I was getting turned on by dick as much as I was by pussy.

Then I found Usenet. To be specific, uk.adverts.personals.gay-lesbian-bi 

Oh my god, what a world that opened up. I arranged to meet a guy at some motorway services. He wasn't like his photo. We went to a layby and walked into a field where he sucked me off. I left feeling feeling dirty (not in a  good way) and ashamed. I don't know why: I wasn't married at this time, I didn't even have a girlfriend. 

A few months later I met another guy.  We'd chatted online for ages and on many occasions before we met. I went to his house during my lunch hour - I was wearing a pin stripe suit. I sucked him off and swallowed his cum.

I met another chap and followed him to a local cruising/dogging site and we wanked each other off. This guy, Cliff, was nice - married and discreet. We met again and he fucked me. Which was nice. The next bloke lived in another town. He rimmed me and his beard tickled. The lube he used before shagging me stung like fuck.

After each of these meetings I still felt ashamed but less so each time. However, I still wasn't married or seeing anyone. Then there was some girl action for a while and no blokes during this time. In 2000 I met my wife and for many years didn't meet any guys.

Our sex life has dwindled recently (another story) so I've started meeting men again. I love sucking cock. I love being fucked. I like looking at, and playing with, cocks. And balls. Fuck! I love big, low hanging balls. But I also love women. I work in an environment where there are a lot of young women and a lot of them are really fucking good looking, fit and sexy. Just the sight of one walking past gladdens my heart. Even the ones who aren't conventionally pretty, or are even fugly, well I can usually identify at least one aspect of them that I find attractive. Legs, hair, bum, tit, eyes, whatever. And I don't have a type, they can be young, old, rounded and curvy or skinny as a rake. White girls, black girls, dark hair, blonde, redheads - it doesn't matter/

However, blokes are just blokes. I don't check out their arses, or see if they have a big bulge. I don't even willy watch at the urinals. The only thing about a man that turns me on is his cock. Is this weird or are many bisexuals like this? 

Anyway tomorrow I'm meeting a local guy for sex. Judging by the photos on his Gaydar profile, his cock is gorgeous.